Dear Daddy,
I miss you Daddy. I wish I could do something to bring you back! People say you would be happier now since you are at a better place. But what about me? My best place was with you; beside you. Will you hold my hand again and take me around the house? Or teach me how to tie a double knot? Or discuss politics and world issues with me? Or entertain me with your extraordinary life stories?
You may be happy, but what about me? How could you just leave me like that? My dear Daddy, WHO will kiss me goodnight now? WHO will protect me from the wicked world outside? Oh my dear Daddy, I am incomplete now. I need you now. Daddy, you did everything I asked you to; now I am asking you to come back! Please come back Daddy. Will you not fulfill this wish of mine? Will you turn me down now? Will you just stand up there watch my tears wet my shirt and my pillow? Will you not hug me and console me that you are right here with me? I love you Daddy. You were my mentor. You were my teacher. You were my backbone. Now you have crossed into the other world leaving me exposed and vulnerable. My backbone is broken now. I am shattered into a thousand pieces. Just call my name once more and I will recollect myself. Just hug me once and I will be whole again. Just kiss my cheek and I will be complete once more...
I cannot believe that you are gone. It is impossible to imagine a life without you. Every hour I look towards your room and expect you to walk out in your crisp shalwar kameez and adorn the air with the sweet aroma of Aramis cologne. I expect to hear your heavy voice calling out "Shehroz Shehroz, Let's go out and get some fruits!" Daddy, who will buy me apples and oranges and melons and watermelons and mangoes? Who will give me company on the lunch table to finish off a whole melon? I just cannot believe you are gone! Even though I washed your lifeless body myself and buried you with my own hands, I cannot believe that you are gone! I refuse to believe that. Please prove everyone wrong and come back! I beg you Daddy. This is all just a dream, please call my name and wake me from this painful nightmare. Daddy I am DYING without you. Your absence is slowly killing me...
Although you were my grandfather in relation, but you were more than a father to me. Our relation exceeded beyond the realm of language! How could you just leave me? You brought me up and taught me everything. You adopted me from your own daughter and loved me more than anyone. You believed in me when the world criticized me. You motivated me when I had given up. You made me who I am today! I want to see you once more, to touch you once more and to tell you once more that I love you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. Please take me with you. I don't want this world. I want YOU.
Words cannot describe our relation nor can words describe the emptiness I feel without you.
With love,
Your favorite,
Shehroz.
No one an can console you and consoling's not the way to go about it either. Just know that he's with you; in your every tear, smile, thought, moment of sadness and ecstasy, joy and sadness and that he will always live within you. Find strength within yourself, please. And may God bless both of you.
ReplyDeleteThanks a lot Khadeeja. Your words mean a lot to me. Thanks a bunch. That was mighty nice of you.
DeleteGod bless you too :)
^ what she said.
ReplyDeleteHe'll always be there. Always. :)
Thanks a lot and thanks for dropping by :-)
DeleteHi Shehroz,
ReplyDeleteYour every single word is the same feeling which i have in my heart . I lost my world ( my daddy ) 2 months ago. I dont know hw im living in this world without him.. But im doing it just because... so as i loved and am completely depended on him soo much.. so as there are people who are depended on me.. and they should not cry feel this pain in their hearts for me.. But that is the only reason which is not letting me leave this world. But there should also be a reason for me to live.. so i searched for my own medicine... My father likes to save, help and care the people in need. So i started my journey from his wish.. This thought started from the 3rd day of him leaving this world.. Till now i helped 3 families ( just an amt of 500 to 1000 p.m.) and 2 children in 2 months.. and its going on.. with the help of my friends.. we r trying to start a foundation.. and im seeing him in the smiles of those people.. I know the real pain of yours.. So im saying you all these... only this is the medicine for me to live. Not that Im forgot him.. Im living for him and his wish ... So even you search for a real medicine and remedy to feel your father and his happiness.. You will surely get a thought....... implement it and live with your dad through out your life.. But dont get depressed this way .. like U n me many people are crying and waiting for their fathers.. but remember one thing no one can separate us from our father..Heaven is not too far. We will surely me them again. Love you dad. Take care friend..
Thanks a lot Suma for your kind words and uplifting ideas. I will surely heed them. Thanks a bunch. And I am extremely sorry to hear about your dad. Daddy was my grandfather but he raised me and I lived with him since birth.
DeleteI'm glad you are helping people. I do the same and would love to help you if you require it as I have been part of many many such projects.
Take care and best of luck in your endeavor.
Every single word of yours broke me in so many pieces.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find strength to overcome the unbearable misfortune and may your daddy rest in peace. Stay strong.
Thanks a lot Maryam and thanks for dropping by. Really appreciate your words.
Delete:-)
He is only a whisper away, a light breeze upon your cheek, a tickle upon your skin, solace in your dream where you meet often and a remembrance upon waking in the morning quickly forgotten. Don't forget, he is truly with you and one day you will have the eyes to see him. X
ReplyDelete