I cried today! I admit that I too have a heart that feels and eyes that fill with tears.Yes, I cried today!
The thought of not being able to do something tortures me. YES, when I realized that no matter how much we fundraise and no matter where we will provide relief, in the end it will not be enough. It will never be enough. Soon the whole hype will settle down and people will start forgetting. People always forget. Its a HUMAN TRADEMARK that they forget easily. I know, soon people will stop giving donations and the NGOs will step in and get going with the government-like corruption. Why did God create such an imperfect and selfish creature? And then gave them a weak heart? And then thrust upon them his wrath in the form of earthquakes and floods?
Yes, I cried. When I realized that no matter what I do, it will not make a difference, I cried. When it occurred to me that I am too insignificant and powerless to do something, I cried.
Every moment when I think of doing something grand and great, I feel like I am just building castles in the sky. Maybe all my desires and wishes and dreams are nothing but castles in the sky. Maybe I am just an overgrown kid who still dreams the impossible. I know people go around saying that Nothing is Impossible. But there are some things that are just never possible. Or maybe I just don’t have the strength or the guts or the resources to make them possible. I will never give up on my dreams BUT maybe one day I will grow out of it and live my life just like the rest-monotonous and insignificant! Or maybe I will become the superman of my dreams!