Human nature is a great mystery. God has created emotions in such a complex and mysterious way that no one can understand how they work. I came to America and my first thoughts were OZZY THESE PEOPLE KNOW THAT THEY WILL NOT SEE YOU AGAIN AFTER A YEAR, AND YOU WILL NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN, SO DO NOT GIVE OR EXPECT LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP, DO NOT GIVE OR EXPECT BONDS FROM THEM!
Things have changed. I have attached myself to so many people who I am sure I will never see again. Even if they do promise to come to Pakistan, I do not know if I will be alive to welcome them. Who knows God's strange way of working! I have made friends, fallen in love and had fun and now it is all going to become just a memory. Everything will become just a memory or an internet discussion. I am called a pessimist for thinking like that, but actually I am just being realistic. I have bonded with people here and I have bonded with people from other countries even though I knew and they knew that we would never see each other again. Human nature. Wierd, isn't it? I never expected this. But now I have to survive the pain of letting it all go. I have to endure completely leaving behind my this life and never seeing it again! How will I do that I do not know because I am usually fragile emotionally! I do not express emotions but I burn from inside.
Bye my friends. Good-bye and forget me not, for I will never forget you!
Parting is always difficult but we all have to do it at one point! Life is a journey and we don't always sail on our terms! Let it go :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for the comment!
ReplyDeleteI will let it go! I will try to!
So this one night I was driving around with some friends and they decided we should pick up a couple of exchange students to hang out with. Little did I know that a few months later those guys would be two of my best friends. We do alot together, and I enjoy every minute of it. Having to say goodbye to them is like saying goodbye to brothers who I know I won't get to see for a long time. My biggest worry is that the one from Pakistan will be hurt, or will think it to dangerous for me to visit. I will visit, I know that. If it's the last thing i do I will go to my friends house, eat his food, and enjoy his company and his country. It has bred him so there is no way I can believe the news when it says that Pakistan is a lost cause. But regardless of what happens, I do know that they are my brothers, that we will meet up again and again, because sometimes the people you choose, the people who walk into your life, can mean alot more than blood when it comes down to needing someone. Only one week left and I have to try and not think about my friend leaving! good luck!
ReplyDeleteLuke, that was emotional!!
ReplyDeleteI had never imagined that we would be friends! And now I am trying not to imagine going back!
But somethings slip from our hands like sand and no way can we get it back...
And will only come if I tell you its safe! But i will definitely come to America!
Who's Luke??
ReplyDeleteyeah yeah! dont start again!
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